It’s so seamless and easy using the automatic update.

Well, I’m still looking for a new theme for my blog. Can’t find enough time to look for it thoroughly.

I’ve been busy working for the company, learning and trying fundamentally important subjects. Learning new things, often with so little resources, without a personal assistance or a dedicated mentor, I’m humbled and grateful that my working environment does not simply consume my talent, but rather trains me to become more knowledgeable and pragmatically skillful.

Initially, my team was focused on iPhone development, following the latest craze, but unfortunately due to lack of preparation, the project is now canceled. It’s hard to ignore the importance of knowing exactly what to do before trying anything.

Currently, I’m actively leading an open source project, in the category of ECMS, using the famous Alfresco. For now, only I can do is utilizing it with addition of Korean language, but I hope sometime sooner my team and I can commit some meaningful contribution to the source.

Tried to blog, saved some drafts with the interesting ideas, but being not so confident enough to write without full knowledge about the subjects, prevented me from publishing. Maybe I am being too careful, or being simply procrastinating. Well, in a good way, Twitter being the useful micro blogging can be the understandable excuse.

As I got used to the professional work environment and pace, I think now I can find the time to blog more regularly, possibly at least once a week. What I strive to get is to be efficient in managing time economically for working for other and myself.

Though it has been too busy and difficult to make time for myself, I am glad that my professional experience has been enriching, meaningful enough to share with others.

Picture: "Keep Thinking" from thinkinTub

Examining myself very closely, my recent difficulty in blogging is not because I am a total recluse who doesn’t like to share with anyone about anything. Or I can make it worse by labeling myself as a lazy person, but it’s not actually true considering what’s going on in my mind. I do have some topics in mind, but somehow it’s just not as easy to share them with the public as I thought it would. It seems to be a methodical, or a situational problem which I must learn to deal with using the solutions from the experienced bloggers and developers. There are what I suspect to be reasons or excuses for my lack of blogging.

Preoccupied in doing a project. But it’s not ready to be opened and shared yet.

• Because I want to keep it as a secret.
• Still the project in the conceptualizing phase which is still too abstract even to myself.
• Waiting for internal and external encouragement on this, to solidify confidence in the project.

I guess this waiting is the major cause preventing me from actual progression. Also, without opening the minimum information about the project, how can I expect to learn anything from the experienced developers whom I can meet and interact through blogging? I must learn to present and communicate well with the experienced developers.

I am not tuned to the current events.

• Not because I intentionally ignore them, but simply I just want to distinguish facts from opinions and it’s taking some time.
• Due to my lack of professional insight, what I can blog about current events is only the repetition of what’s already there with a little bit of my simple thoughts. It’s not a real contribution in my measure.

To gain more professional and unique insight, it would take a lot of reading and speculating, challenging me to build and re-build knowledge basis. This task must be taken quite seriously and I need find the right way to do it.

I need to have more reading and watching to expand my knowledge and imaginations, which cannot be limited in web browsing.

• Embarrassingly, I began to understand the need to have more various activities including something entirely different from or even against one’s field of study, in my case it’s Computer Science.
• Narrowed perspective, intentionally or unintentionally gained prevent one from developing and sharing his or her experiences or thoughts with others.

I am thinking about having more knowledge in film making, English learning, Bible study, social servitude, and unknown other possibilities. The additional solution is to meet more people from various interests. Though I don’t neglect the value of socializing, it’s been hard for me to be more proactive.

Not utilizing the notes in my journal.

• As a proof for not being lazy, I’ve been keeping journals. However, almost none of the notes are used in blogging. Because of excessive filtering not to jeopardize my private notes, my record keeping has contributed so little for my blogging.
• But most of all, I think it’s lack of confidence in my notes that prevented me to review them more carefully to find the value.

The worst thing that I found while writing this blog, blogging infrequency is the consequence of not following the plan as it is scheduled. Procrastination is the worst kind of enemy for developers and bloggers like myself. It’s not only about unable to do something, but also about taking away the opportunity to do something else, possibly better and more important thing.

And I must free myself from fear of not becoming a responsible contributor. Accepting my current status of being a student of life and knowledge without any set date for graduation, must not be ashamed of utilizing the resources from others especially the open information and I must understand that mature blogging experience require so many trials and error.

In conclusion, not only for my blogging but also for other activities, I must embrace beauty of making mistakes and learning from these valuable experiences.

UPDATE(2009/08/04 16:31) Found a good article related to this blogging problem. [CopyBlogger] The Most Horrible Blog Post Ever

Not only for the development use, but also for job searching, I must start the coding exercises for my PHP and Ajax learning. Or change the old ASP files to PHP version as an exercise, like I’ve posted before. I’ve starred many posts found in RSS feeds and it’s up to me to invest quality time to digest all these good ideas and knowledge.

Without something to show or share, it’s so hard to have a conversation with anyone online or offline. That’s why I must be working or studying so I can talk about it with others. Shouldn’t there be a solution for introverts who just don’t know how to express attractively? I need to examine my method of interacting with others.

Along with this matter, I must stop worrying about the frequency of making statements or blogging. While taking care for quality of my expressions, frequency matter is irrelevant or automatically solved, I guess.

Regarding the blog design, currently I need to try other good themes to find the perfect match, but only until I can design my own.

It thrills me to have a comment only after a day re-launched my website. I was glad that the the first one was nothing like a spam, but sincere friendly comment. I joyfully thanked the first commenter. Looking at  the report from the Google Analytics, I am beginning to think that all my past effort in bookmarking in my website didn’t help to get more traffic than simple but active commenting on other websites and Twittering. Recognizing others is the best way to get recognized.

Utilizing every little jot in Twitter, me2Day, Facebook, and my notebook can help me to write a daily entry. Tracking, aggregating and polishing almost every thought I have in a day is very crucial.

Set up mail service. Needed to send the confirmation email, but had to wait to the next day. Seems to be the setup process wasn’t as fast as I thought. Had little trouble logging in through Gmail system.

Need to find a better theme and add my profile with picture.

Check contact information, my petershine@fxceed.com status where and how it’s being exposed to the public.

Yes, the domain is finally working. I even had to change DNS name server myself due to the technical difficulty of the hosting company.

There were unexpected difficulties I had to suffer. The database system in this new hosting company is not as friendly as I wanted it to be. It required me to name the database following certain rule, which is explained in quite confusing way. It took me more than 30 minutes. Also, my local server’s phpMyAdmin was located at someplace too hard to find. Without knowing the export/import capability in WordPress, I had to add my posts in fxceed.com with manual date changes. Fortunately, I have only few posts to be added, but I was quite frustrated at myself, without a good reason.

Managing files among different folders is quite confusing and stressful. For I use both Mac and Windows together in my Macbook, folder synchronizing is a little daunting.